| f4g! |
[Sep. 29th, 2006|10:30 pm] |
uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuughghhhhhghhghhghhhhghhhhhhughhh.
you lie through your teeth and i really cant stand it,
but what am i to do? im in freaking love with you.
How Seldom We Belong.
:/
it's getting really old, fast. |
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| yellowbrickroad. |
[Sep. 27th, 2006|05:54 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | whatever.. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | with this song i will distroy myself-moneen | ] |
"I'm the one without a soul.
I'm the one with this big fucking hole.
No new tale to tell,
twenty-six years on my way to hell.
Gotta listen to your big time hard line,
bad luck fist fuck.
Don't think you're having all the fun.
You know me I hate everyone."
its only the truth and now i've learned to never believe you.
i've lost my faith in you.
i've lost my faith in man period.
and it's all your fault, it's all your fault.
and you know it.
but you refuse to do anything about it.
practically against your fucking religion.
selfish and unsorry,
you just worry about yourself and your safety.
reputation, its what you live for.
and it's too late to save myself from your wrath.
you led me down the wrong path.
i tried to return but honey it's too late.
im lost, forever,
and without your guidance i have no direction,
i have nothing, IM nothing.
but you dont care, you never cared, you never will and i can't help it.
i believed every stupid lie you let slip about how much you cared, when really you wouldnt dare.
so here i am lost and alone,
[too bad i seriously broke my phone, HAH D:< ]
and im literally on the verge of giving up, and i can't start over.
so you can watch me diteriorate.
watch me sit here and die inside, and not before long, outside too.
and while im here ill watch the fury within you die and pity take over you.
you're nothing without me now.
you never were.
you never will be.
karma's a fucking bitch, bitch.
D:| |
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| dedication to courtneycaustic @ livejournal |
[Sep. 13th, 2006|10:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  gloomy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | I Miss You- Acceptance [ironic, huh?] | ] |
wow,\ i miss it too. everything, the fucking freedom to wear normal clothes, to stay up late, to see eachother when it's conveinent, not just on the weekened, me pretty much falling off of everything and you laughing, ice/water fights, golf cart, dressing weird, music videos, walking on your heels [LMFAO], watching parental controls, drinking hottie [beans, for those of you who aren't cool enough to know that] shots, being how i used to be with you; no paranoia, i just had you, all of our summer songs, and dances too. the shows =], kenney!, omfg, just, everything. i miss the fuck out of it, and even though i finally saw you i miss you again, i missed you the moment i walked out of your car and into my house, because i just dont feel right, im not the same without you, without having fun with you, gah, im not even that funny anymore. =/
and i love you
i love you SO SO SO SO SOOOOOOO SO SOS SO SOSOSOSOOSOSO much,
like, more than so much,
like indescribably so so much.
i need to be with you more often,
i'd rather be me and a nothing, and ugly un-funny nothing,
and im only me when im with you.
ying to muh yang.
monstah out. |
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| update |
[Aug. 25th, 2006|09:02 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | SHITANTONIO | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Help Me Im In Hell | ] |
school's started. amazing. non-stop fun.
however, i never have time anymore.
no sleep, no excuses.
my guitar's neglected, i miss not eating :/
i need to lemon detox like everyone else is promising themselves.
seriously, i really really need the one person in the world who seems to understand anything, and everything as well.
teach me something i care to know.
i want to look at the world like its invisible.
i am just me now.
and nothing really matters.
at least, not anymore.
im starting to just not care, thats probably not such a good idea.
i wuvvvvvv ryan [no, NOT ross, thanks]!
i chopped my hair off. i fucking miss it.
but it's still a good cut, i can ry-hawk it with some gel and some time.
getting it died soon. freaking dark brown.
maybe sometime soon i'll go back to my original platinum blonde hair.
some kid has a purple skunk stripe.
i want a skunk stripe.
fuck society and rules, i cant stand rules.
i miss/love the twin.
<3
somebody make me important. |
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| prep days? |
[Aug. 11th, 2006|11:46 am] |
it sounds worse than it really is, but UGH. today i have to go to my new school and meet all my teachers or whatever. I DONT EVEN HAVE A SCHEDULE! AHHHHHHHHH.
my best friend was supposed to be coming with me, but now that is probably near impossible. anywho, im going to see about a thousand people that i haven't seen in a little over 2 years now, and im somewhat excited about that.
except my nose is peeling and my hair is half straightened and all my clothes are dirty.
hmmmmmm..we'll see. |
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| newww |
[Aug. 9th, 2006|02:13 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home? | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | False Pretense-The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus | ] |
im shelby [also known as: monster] , this is my first livejournal. if you cant tell im SUPER new at this. i need/want some amazing friends, so add me if you like me =D
it morninnnnnnnnnnn, like, 2 or something, hah yeah, it is.
im not tired at all, im pretty much browsing.
everybody add me, especially if you have the patience to help me out.
thankkks! |
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